the happiest day of my life.

Yesterday is a day filled with laughter and joy. What do I mean by that? the day started when I came into the office early to prepare for my intake exam with mr Soh. anyway, the students are really particular about the mistakes when I processed the exam paper, and pointed out to the invigilator. So I spent the day running to and fro from my office to the exam class, explaining and clarifying the mistakes.

I was supposed to stay back an hour and go out at 2. No joke man, considering that we both went home late after an event that we organised at Nee Soon South CC the previous night. (we left around 9 pm.) then I rushed into the office 1 hour early to prepare ourselves for the invigilation of the exam. (7.30 am) then Mr Soh told me that I have to stay back an hour just to help him carry the stuff back into the office. (that would be around 2 pm.)

But I managed call Ryan and he told me that all my friends are in the Youth Park, doing some volunteering service. I was delighted and i managed to negotiate with my boss to let me go early.. haha..

when I reached Ceneileisure, I shopped around for a pair of comfy slippers. My feet were aching from all walking around in heels. I think if I continue to wear heels yesterday, I would have collapsed.

when I reached Youth Park, my eyes were already half closed. I strolled around for them. I spotted Ryan first and he yelled out my name. but the others were pretty busy doing their own things. the malay volunteers requested that I sign my particulars on a piece of paper and pointed to Rebecca and the other SC members. ( some of them I do not know..) when they looked up at me, they exclaimed in surprise and guided me. Hanrong commented he wanted to paint blue.

then Kan Leong spotted me, and he waved to me. I waved back. Haha.. KL, My good friend in class K.E. i immediately clicked with him the moment we talked inside the class, it happens that my group was doing project work. talked non -stop till I really have to leave for class. from tat day, I guess we will always remain good friends.

after I hand printed on a piece of paper, I was directed to the other side, where Kan Leong and also the other guys were on standby. I knelt down to position my hand on top of the pail. Kok Yen and Steven looked up and yelled in surprise.

"DILLA!!!"

I was shocked by their response and almost sat down on my butt.

"Hey, long time since I last saw you.." Kok yen added. Steven nodded.

"what are you doing now?"

"Working." I replied to kokyen's qn.

" As what?"

"Admin assistant."

I guess that moment filled my heart with goodness and joy. the greatest gift that my friends have are their presence, and nothing can ever replace them. just to be able to see them, together, is enough for me. I even saw Sir Oon, and his daughter, Adeline.
it is a rare moment just to see them together in one day, except for Hajjar. I asked around for her, and I was told that she was sick. I was worried about her.

but my sleepines overcame it.
My eyes were half-closed most of the time, and GAry and Millie stood in front of me. I believe Millie did something to me, and I jut stared at them blankly for a while. I chatted with them for a while.

I went on to mingle with the rest, ans finally went down to sit down at a corner. Kan Leong and Eddie joined me, and we chatted. Eddie had no idea who i am. (Until KL refreshed his memory.)

I joined faisal, whose job was to hang up the hand printed papers. He spotted me, and to catch my attention, he poked me at the side. he knows that my weakness is around my stomach and sides. u know lah.. if kanna poked at d sides, I jump up a mile.. no kidding.

I played around with him, doing the same thing. Suddenly he defended himself, and poked at me repeatedly. He swung his arms around me and continued the same thing.

"Adilla, you're from work?"

I nodded.

" what you plan to do after this?"

" I dunno, I wanna hang out with them."

"At around 4 pm, I need to go."

"how come?"

" my friend's mum just passed away. I consider his mom like my own."

"icic. okie den."


I sat donw again and intended to get some rest. but GAry gathered the volunteers and asked them for PR work. I just stared at them from afar. you know what? running around and doing some work is the last thing of my mind. All I wanted to do is to sleep. haha.. but gary spotted me and asked me to follow them. I just followed them behind with rebecca.

After the PR work, they got ready to leave for dinner. it was already 4 plus, and I missed him already.

I went off with Millie, who wanted to buy something at Heeren's. we talked along the way, and i culd see that our friendship bond getting tighter. we headed to Millenia Walk, where the rest wanted to buy something - candies after our dinner.

I relished every moment that we hung out together, and Kok yen wanted me to stick to him. During our dinner at Burger King, I chatted with him, and both of us were really happy to see the rest. I joked with Steven, Han Rong, and Kok Yen.

Millie talked about the investiture, and she wanted to do the same dance for the previous investiture. Ryan gave sume ideas for the investiture. alas, the idea is great, but she doesn't even have time to chereograph the whole thing.

Soon, it was time to go home. During the walk home, I was accidentally left behind. coz the rest didn't notice that I still haven't crossed the road. I waited for the road to clear, in the corner of my eye, I noticed that the whole gang had stopped in their tracks and looked around. Millie ran back to where I was still standing, and I went after them, grinning cheekily.

"I tot that you are already at the front." GAry commented after I walked towards the group.

"haha.. nope. you guys didn't notice." I replied.

it was just like the old times.



Gary, Millie, Hajjar, Ryan, Sir Oon, Adeline, Rebecca, Faisal, Doreen, Intan, Kok Leong, Eddie, Kok yen, Steven and the rest,

thank you for giving me the best times of my life. you really supported me when I was hospitalised, gave me laughter and joy, all the fun times that we had together. there might be some times where we went through some conflict, and somehow the group wasn't as tight as before. Now is March, 2 months before you guys graduate from ITE Clementi or Tampines. I seriously hope that we could get together one day, this time, all of us happy and just enjoying each other's company. This is my dream, and a dream that I hope would be fulfilled one day...

surviving after lindy hop..

I have survived. Survived the first session of Lindy Hop.

In case you dun know, today is the first session of the long awaited Lindy Hop. I dun dare to look forward to it, since it was postponed once. I waited inside MAc's for a while to fill my stomach, and waited for the last minutes. I went in with a glowing heart, but ended up feeling my heart had gotten trampled. (I got humiliated by a guy, and he's not even an instructor.)

I know myself. I know that I am a slow learner, and I learn things slower than others. So I am not surprised to see others getting it right the first time. But I'm willing to learn. So i hope that there is a friendly instructor who wants me to progress. Even if I had to spend hours dancing alone (it feels awkward btw.) just to practise the dance moves, every day, every night, I would willingly sacrifice the hours. Why? For my passion in dancing.

Besides being a slow learner, Lindy Hop requires you to have a partner when you dance. I tell you, it is totally different from what I have learnt in my past experiences. The mentality and the coordination that you have to get with your partner are the difficult things you have to overcome.

Learning how to do Lindy Hop is like a baby trying to learn how to walk. I had to change my mindset and my moves to suit my partner. I'm no longer free, dancing to suit my own pace. It is a total learning experience. Never had I need to change due to difficult situation or environment.
I still remember my friend saying this, never mind how insecure you feel when you do something new, it's your passion that makes the difference.

Now I'm feeling whether I have signed up for the wrong course or not.

valentine?

aie?? it's been almost 10 days since I last updated this?

just to touch on valentine's day, it was actually a simple occasion. I still remember that day was hectic for me. We agreed to meet at 8 pm, but I changed the appointment time to be a bit late. I rushed through my work, since the thought of making him wait again . I even cursed myself when I missed the bus. that thought worried me a lot when I tried to flag for a taxi. I did, and I reached home five minutes before that. but it turned out that he was still on the way, and it took him another half an hour before he reached my place. Enough time for me to take a bus home and shower.. -_-"

initially, I find it a bit funny for us to meet at my void deck. I thought that we should at least meet somewhere else, and we walk as we talked. We had this conversation before, and it went..


"Hey, next monday is valentine's day!" he exclaimed.
"Oh izzit?" (me as blur as ever..)
"yeah, it is.."
then I recalled.
"yup, valentine's day is coming. I didn't realise it.. Haix.."
" So what you want?" he asked me directly.
I was stumped.
" Eerr.. I dunno.."
"Bracelet? Necklace?"
"I still dunno.. anything lah.."
"i'm not a romantic person you know? and this is my first time celebrating V day.." I added.
"It's ok.. You can learn.."
"Ok, I'll make you a handmade present." he decided.


Ok, back to that v day. I waited for his call, and did some work.

When the time finally came, I was blushing inside. (although I had no idea why.)

I spotted him, sitting and wearing the Puma jacket which I bought for him. All I can remember is the moment where Faisal gave me a present carefully covered with a translucent wrapping paper. ( Psst, it's now at my workplace)

It's a cardboard paper with blue background. An archery board was cut into heart shape, on the right hand corner of the box and topping it with a "arrow" and naming it Adilla and Faisal. the words Valentine's day took up the rest of the space and on top of it was a small card.

the card contains a poem (I can't remember the details)


I was overwhelmed by the beauty of the present. I'm not being biased here, but I could tell that he spent a lot of time and effort to do it.

I love you, Faisal!!

Pre Valentine's Day..

I'm writing on the day before the world celebrates Valentine's Day. haha.. how do I feel? kinda kancong, kinda happy, excited at the same time. but also worried, because dunno what to give to Faisal. ;x

For the past 19 years of my life, I'm finally celebrating Valentine's Day. the feeling's kinda weird, one's gotta do it.

I know that it's totally tough going out with a guy who's 2 years younger than me, and is still schooling. but he's going to end his period of ITE Clementi. After that, it will be their turn to decide on what they want to do in life. I know sooner or later, faisal is going to NS soon. I dread the moment when it comes. he pointed out that it's tough on both of us since we are both leading totally different lives, but it's going to be more rougher on me when he goes to NS.

What I love about him?

He's a very understanding guy. Very straight-forward and not afraid to tell others his opinions. A joker, but most important of all, he's more matured than other guys that I met. He's been through rough patches and not afraid to admit those.

you know, the most common and the heavy burden that we both face is this:

we just got together at the wrong time. and people tend to judge him based on his age. (even though he looked more older than what he really is.)

I admit, both of us agree that's its true, and we do face a lot of challenges in front of us. first of all, we rarely meet. we do try to talk once a week or he sms me to let me know he's thinking of me. I do the same.
we do go out, but I'm loaded with work nowadays so we don't have the chance to go out.


I always wonder what if I were to continue studying and continuing this relationship with Faisal. What would happen? will we change, in one way or another? what would we feel, or even think? last but more important, will our behaviour change?

What if our relationship is like Millie and Gary? Same school, more time to spend with each other? Is there any difference between theirs and ours?

We don't have the luxury of time, or more chances to meet each other. every meeting, every outing is treasured, coz we both know that it might be days or weeks before we get the chance to do so. you might be asking, how come we dun arrange to meet up at least once a week? our daily schedule or work just conflict, and the times where i just wanted to hang out with him is when he has his own activities or if not, my activities.

But one's thing for sure, I will be the same person as before, and I won't change unless i'm in different environment. But i'm starting to change. (just hang out with me and you will know..)
For that part, I leave my fate in GOD's Hands. I always believe that things happen for a reason. I won't know the reason now for sure, but the knowledge that I can depend on GOD makes me feel serene.

What would happen next? what would we do after 3 months had passed?





I really miss him. that's it.

hanging out with Chong..

wah.. found myself hanging out with mai good friend, Chong, or a.k.a. Sabrina. last nite was a blast, the whole day has been tiring and fun. well, me going out later with her and her lovely younger sister.

tell you more later.

Adios!